动力的泉源

"没发现吗 朋友离你多远了?"

走吧 我再也不是你的支配者
傀儡般的支配你的 思想 言行
你问 我是谁?
请问 你又是哪个谁呢?
骗回来的男朋友 假装的幸福
只不过是你的爱慕虚容

"你好,我是×××", "你很厉害"
 "你成绩很好" "你很聪明"
"你很漂亮" "你身材不错"
被称赞 很得意吧

一句真心话,
"其实,你鼻孔朝天,很丑"
"我不喜欢你"

2014,你好,相信你会待我不错吧?
给自己两个月的时限,
瞧不起人的妳,
拭目以待。

跑吧,孩子!

同学问我:" 为什么你那么勤劳?就连拜六礼拜也不出门。"
妒忌我的人说:"哎呀,你酱聪明,不用读的啦,去玩啦!"

不是我勤劳或者是我聪明,而是我花了13年才真正明白"今天不走明天就要跑"的道理。
所以你看到的是我一路跑来的成绩,而忽略了我的努力。
而,现在,我依然奋力的在奔跑着。
因为我坚信 "不进则退"

不完美中的完美

我,
眼睛虽然不大,但是也不小;
鼻子不高,但也不塌;
嘴型不美;但却不大;
发型不时尚,但还是有头发;
皮肤不滑溜,但也可算白皙;
身材不好,但还是有腰;
腿不算长,但依然看到腿线;
手臂不纤细;但也算不上粗;
没有翘臀;但还是看到臀部;

朋友,这样的我,你被比下去了。。。
不要妒忌,因为我就是我。。。

生日快乐

蜡烛,由一根根小小的,慢慢的两根大大的。。。三根,四根。。。
所谓的岁月不绕人,是用蜡烛的大小与数量来定义?🎂
经过几许的日子,岁月悄悄的来了,把脚印留在了脸上。。。👩👰👵
是那些痕迹改变人的心智; 或成熟抑是不长思进。
怎么啦?😟不赞同么?有些事情由不得你不接受,😦节哀顺便。
送一份叫做'快乐'的礼物给自己🎁
祝我未来九年:
 生日快乐 😄

KLIM 2013

After 3 years of KLIM duty,finally this yr got the chance to follow ambulance ... really appreciate it,althought tired but i feel happy even dont have many chance to do cases...
however,hao cherng's facial expression sholud shows some improvement.juz a face with shit sticked on it,its smelly~may be he aldy immune to that shit smell,but all of us do smell it.
 Haha~the main thing is i got those saline and the iv drip needle and controller for my study next sem~
"thanks' to the doctor who didnt show her face for this duty:'useless doctors'...

那,又如何?

这是永远也回不去的时光

 一直都不晓得,

 原来所谓的害怕渐变成快乐;

 以为的不习惯早已被习惯了。

 很想把脚步停留在这里,

噢!
好像不行

 我,叹息;

 也,无奈。

回家

再也听不到时钟滴答 滴答行走的脚步声
时间的流逝 已成了习惯
 “哎呀！ 迟到了！”
 看看手机上的时间依然不是我的习惯

 要是，
 错过回家的时间。。。

孤单得可怜

闹钟显示时间: 7:31am 呵呵,我起床了。
人,天生犯贱;我,今天不用上学.
 接着,发现室友都不在...
心里跟着惊慌的一下下,起得早却才发现没人,
噢喔,感觉不太好。
 啊~突然才想起,淑君回家了;馨慈去玩了。
 剩下....我 孤单得可怜

how?

http://www.straitstimes.com/premium/forum-letters/story/perform-cpr-only-when-necessary-and-training-20130815
 r v going to give CPR for patient without normal breathing???
but v r trained to do so.....

我知道

我知道，
谁。。。
可以是朋友，
谁，
又只是个生命中的过客。

我不闻，你也不问。
未来，
你问，我也可以不闻。。。

儿子呢？

如果说，女儿是爸爸前世的情人；
那，儿子呢？

NYPCO garden by the bay concert

well,this is the 1st time,to become a helper for concert. actually i'm really looking towards for it.
but....juz forget about it. all the excitement is gone when i reach the combined room to help up.
all the so call set A senior is busying,but y cant they assign some job for us??  make us look stupid by standing along the corridor. i expect thr will be more helpers from set B like us, but it doesn't.
juz 3 of us?! i really shock!  i tot i can relax for whole concert but..the show is juz goin to start.
1st job they assigned to us when reach thr is ,they juz gave us a simple job by holding the holding room key ,juz open the door at certain time whr the performers need to go into the room.  it seem like qiute senang. then 3 of us nid to carry the food for them. its not senang at all!
jacky , the president of NYPCO from johor, ask us to follow him to take the food. the food.....3 boxes, each box with 35 boxes of bento.i carried like hell. damn heavy.y dont they ask male helper to become a helpper??  and all the people juz walk pass me, dont even ask us whether v ned help not! obviously, we do need help!
i cant expect jacky to help me, ask he look slimmer than me ,look like no energy and he himself oso carried a box of food...
after finished carried, its time for us to unlock the door. then, v are so hungry. all the performers having the bento happily while we are waiting them to go out of the room and lock the door.
from the 100 packet of bento, they dint even leave one for us...people, helper is same as u,a normal huamn who nid to breath, eat and rest and we only have 2 hands!
then v having our stomach empty and watch their performances.
then, after performance v need to clean up the stage, the instrumentsssss super heavy! transfer the instruments from stage to loading bay....is far~
some performers juz go home straight and dont even lend their precious hand to us!
when reach at school ,is around 11pm liao!  some wait for the lorry fetching the instrumentsss to reach,its around 11.30pm.
then here is the helpers jobs! carry all the instrumentsss back to the combined room.
then i saw the last instrument is on the floor, then i wondering, why all the guy dont carry it??
then i offer myself to take it as it has wheel at the case.
ok,it's heavyyyyyyy!i dont even can take it up!
ok,nevermind,i'll try one more time. 1,2,3,up!
yeah ! finally it's up! then i pull all the way to door outside the co room. the corner side is too little space for me to do a u turn as the instrument is damn big in size. then i started to shout bcause i got no energy to hold it on anymore, then all the guys stand behind me juz look at me and not helping me leh!!!
i feel like want to drop it to the floor liao! haha,here the hero comes in, is the 'senior named ALVIN.he help me to do the u turn then......he let go his hand! walao! cannot help a bit meh??!
then he walk beside me,here started the conversation:
"are u ok?"
"no" i replied.
"let me help u." although he juz hold beside,but its really not that heavy liao.
"this thing is yang qin" he told me,then i shocked.no wonder its so heavy lar.
"u r carrying a 60 kg instrument,quite heavy" ok....he should ask guys to do it!
" let me carry for u" donno whether this is a good offer not,as v already carried the yang qin along way and juz about 2 steps to be put the yang qin in the combined room. anyway, his hero image is gone....

today is no food and tiring day!!!
=.=
and this is the evidence,how they treat the helpers

心痛了。。。

要不是没办法，我也不会心痛。
没事情，裤子的纽扣干吗都坏掉？！

这班家伙

真是的, 除了吃的,就没什么好炫耀了吗?! 吃条鱼也要放上FB! 炫耀动物的尸体,有那么得意吗?! 如果,把你宰了,再让大家知道, 会更刺激,更有成就感吧! 这班家伙,真是的!

静静的

看着FB的美食照，
我，静静地，吃着泡面。。。
慢慢地，
我会忧郁而死。。。

4个月来，我已经吃了十几包泡面，还要是每一包都有五包。。。
我绝对讨厌那种帮食物拍了遗诏还要post 上FB！
等你天天吃泡面，你就能够深刻的体会到一个人静静吃泡面的感觉。。。

面子

去看老师演奏会，回的时候还要老师载我们到地铁站。
我们没有要求，是老师自己说载的。。。
老师还帮我开车门叻！
大家都说我面子大。
我没有 >.< 是老师自己offered 的！
朋友说：“那么多学生里面，老师应该最记得你！”
“为什么？”
“因为，只有你敢跟老师乱！”
“我没有！”

我真的没有。。。

NR 1301

感觉像是快毕业了～

失恋吗？？

感觉就像失恋了，

这种感觉

是

一股强烈的失落感。。。

我想念你了。。。

Drama

The class of appreciation of drama and movie i joined teach me a lot of doing filming on a drama and of course more on how to enjoy a drama /movie.

its boring yet fun as half the time during class i slept....

the lecturer do introduce us two drama which really boring but i love the story of it.

its actually a broadway musical in theater : miss saigon  & les miserable

story of miss saigon:

 Years after leaving Vietnam, Chris discovers his war bride Kim is still alive and is now raising his son. He returns to Saigon to find her, but with the Viet Cong closing in on the city and other ties at home binding him, Chris is forced to make some large decisions before leaving Vietnam again.

story of les miserable:

Jean Valjean, an ex-con, has transformed himself to become mayor and the owner of a factory. But when he is moved to help one of his former workers, Fantine, Valjean's past is brought to light, and he is forced to abandon everything to run from Javert, the chief of police, dead set on bringing him to justice. Nine years later, Cosette, Fantine's child, has been raised by Valjean and has fallen in love with Marius, a fighter in the French revolution. With Javert on the hunt and a revolution tearing the city apart, everyone is forced to question what they're willing to sacrifice in pursuit of love and justice.

笛子

这管东西几乎要了我的小命。。。

练习

每次，
这个时候。。。
我都会肚子痛 >.<

崩溃ing。。。。

cello cello~~
i'm in cello room...whr i hate the most

1st time....

another date with my super handsome teacher after yesterday last theory class.....

Psycho Today(1) ~

Learning Theory
1. Id- pleasure self,also known as unconscious self, whr u only do the thing when u feel like doing it w/o any consideration. Eg: to have food when hungry
2. Superego- ability to determine right and wrong,to live to suit the society
3 .Ego- instinct drive,try to balance id and outside world,also known as "balance personality"

Example:
During lesson of bioscience ,a boring lecture, I feel sleepy,and dozing on the book( Id),
but I don't mean to do that as I might miss out important messages from lecturer (Superego),but juz cant get rid of the sleepiness(Id)
When my Id and Superego cannot balance,i will drive into crazy(thats how ppl become cazy; er...i think so)
To solve this problem is,I hope lecturer can tell us: now,3.45, lets have 15 mins break,then only continued next chapter at 4.00.(Ego)
After 15 mins nap, I can listen to the lecture w/o nodding my head.(Ego balanced Id and Superego)

*Ego is always important....

心。碎了

除了惊讶以外
更多的是难过，
心脏缓缓的跳动

那照片，我，看了。
没有别人，是个女的。。。
原来不是同性恋。

 可是。。。
突然失去了目标
空虚得实在不知所措。

梦里，他出现了。
目睹了这一刻
我痛得醒来，愣了
他亲下去了！

心脏复苏手术失败

或许
。。。。。。
没机会

动力～

找到目标了！

 Esplanade - Theatres on the Bay
有朝一日要站上去的舞台
Singapore's largest performing stage
I'm cuming~
加油！！！！

走火入魔

旋律不停的在耳边徘徊
同一首曲子
同样的旋律

一个星期过去了
每一天
早上到晚上
不厌其烦地在嚷嚷

听得路边的野草落泪
花儿也谢了
室友睡着了

心，痒了
却，骚不到痒处
压力往这里靠拢
快乐依然存在

也没啥不好，
就，
入魔了嘛～

哦～

今天那个看起来像28岁的40岁老师竟然出现！

还站在我后面，害我压力到。。。一个音都不敢吹！

我有很用心可是就是学不会，我老师要放弃我了啦！ >.<

我的老师。。。。

一个很厉害的年轻人。。。。

帅!

Champion~

我还是那个奇迹！
哈哈！

捐血记

噢哦！又不够血了。。。。
可是医生很帅哟～～

Thank u~

I am from a country where our government never learn the way to appreciate the people......

5月5号

用多少方法都洗不掉的污垢。。。
你已经成为历史，抹不去的历史。。。
最肮脏的故事，由你开始。。。。

饿...

以前,在家,都不会觉得肚子会饿..

宿舍

1.5

今天是劳动节。。。
我的脑袋在很勤奋地劳动着。
每天的每天都在劳动，
不差5月一号的这天。。。

沉闷

重复式地过日子，
静悄悄的。。。。
将我从地球上，

隔绝了。

我不是有钱人

算过了，总共S$720, 如果每个月只用 S$300，可以省下 S$300，另外的 S$120 是学校杂费买书用。

 吃喝 用 100，每一餐最多 3 块钱。。。每天还可以省2角钱。。。。
 交通 用 100，除了学校，哪里都不去。。。尽量早起，搭free shuttle bus。。。
 日用品 100，有需要才买，例如：卫生棉。。。

剩余的钱要带回家。
因为我不是有钱人，
父母更不是。。。。。。

每个人。。。

我想家。。。

耐心的等。。。

日复一日，终究只为了那天。。。

save

需要耐几个月的食物
省省省！！！

strong feeling

saturday and sunday always make me feel nostalgic of goin back to form 6.....
when the bio text book opened make the feeling even stronger.....
sad T^T...y i dun study hard that time leh???????

I appreciate......

i was like trying to get a ＮＹＰ free t-shirt by writing
thing or person u appreciate....

why

sometimes,
i m wondering.....
why?
am i stupid??

Again!!

 In a beautiful saturday,both of my roomate wasnt in the room,left me alone,so i decided to study.
  but study for a long time is tiring then i watch the running man video given by jia yann. then i had a can of' 'gui ling gao'.
  After i finish eat,i walk out from room to wash the empty can....
OH NO!!! J.F was walking towards me.ok,i pretend i dunno him.
BUT....when he walk pass me he tried to recall my name :"Jia Wei? "
    By the way,i m a normal person,so i gave him a normal reaction n reply him :" no, Jia Yee!"
then i try to walk away.but! he juz :" Jia Yee, are u hanging your clothes outside? can u take it down? we are goin to have a photoshooting,not nice to have something hanging."
     I was like : har? wat? NOw? OH NO!!! IS he goin to get into my room? NO WAY!!!!
with all the shirt hanging messy in the room and bra and panties! no! he cant go into my room!
but,i still have to open the door for him to peek through.
    Ok,now,i opened it,N,i walk as fast as i could and take down everything hanging,i hope he saw nothing.
 i tot he will go away after i took down all my shirt,but, he is not! he push my door open and wait for me!
      OK,FINE,I m still ok with it,because i was about to go out from tis room.thanks to him letting the door opened for me =.=
 

ABOUT a Man

      For this guy,generally,i dont like him since i met him for my interview.until now he is still erm...difficult to say,but, the way he act is totally....i wont choose this kind of man to b my future partner, i m wondering is tis reason make him still single now?
      Again an experience a terrible matter form him! me n my roomate was juz want to go out to management office to get our student pass photostate. Juz v walked out of our room,this terrible guy shout from opposite :"girls,wait! i m goin to have a look at your room!" Oh Gosh! @o@  v hang all our clothes everywhr in the room,somethings tat v think v wouldnt like to let guy to see it. Me n roommate rush back to room n put every hanging clothes into cupboard n lock d cupboard.
      The next second,this man knock our door! phew~ a sign of relief. he juz b too kei poh to noe y v ran so fast,but nobody was ready to answer him  ^_^

     HE IS J.F!!!!!

No Way!!!

   first time in singapore, terrible....having so many things ,stupid luggage is so heavy.and the stupid air asia,so pek cek have such a small seat!
  1st in the hostel,is not convinient! 3rd floor without lift! luckily a gentleman helped to carry my super duper heavy luggage....is a young boy~
   next,many taxi driver dun even know whr is our hostel! luckily can go back hostel in time after shopping
  the shopping...thanks to lee kin jun who oso known as a gentleman, help me a lot for my 1st day in singapore...i actually had disturb him from rushing for his assignment. once he receive my calls ,he juz came to my hostel n bring me n my roomate to shop for things like slipper T.T   he oso gud to help us carried our thing,act like a uncle. @.@
  2nd day is juz too bad! medical check up,for rthe blood test is terrible...i m wondering is the person took my blood have pass her test on how to use d needle in proper way??? it is so pain until i scream out loudly! T^T..
  then open for bank account lar,,buy singapore phone number lar but i m not goin to use it!
  the most horrible thing is v cant hang our shirt outside after wash n in the room v got no place to hang ! walao!
  somemore have to stay one year! tak boleh tahan!!!!!!!

远远

有时候，远远看着，也挺好的。

心情

怀着忐忑不安的心情,我还是去了。明知道他今天不会出现,我还是去了。 就为了见他一眼。如我所预料,他,没来。好吧!那就等明天咯! ,,,,,,, 8。30,应该会出现吧?? 没关系,他习惯迟到。 9. 他来了,踏着自信的脚步走进来。 两年没如此近距离看他了,更帅气了! 声音真好听! ,,,,,, 他就是颗遥远的星星,在黑暗的天空看得他更清楚。 却,永远都碰不到。

2012 National Comp..

时间就这样溜走了，2012 年最开心的莫过于nationalcomp。

曾经为这个比赛忙到喘不过气，甚至窒息。
每天不到十点都不回家，父母骂声四起。早上一杯milo到晚上回家才吃饭。。。。很累～
 我承认我是比较笨，很多东西都学不来，老是被人翻白眼。不到最后关头我都不能认真，不好意思。。。。。
心虚。。。其实我并没有很努力的 face book。老样子，书本打开然后发呆。。。一天就这样过去了。。。。。
同样的愿望，如果时间可以重来我会更努力。
感谢上天慈悲，这次比赛学了不少。
同时发现大家真的很好人。感情增进了不少～ ^ ^

总结：
AA team： hao cherng 还是没让我改观
                 boon tek ，。。。和四年前见到的没差
                 eugene， 50% 的话不能相信
                 其他两位，不了解。。。无法给予评语
AC team: 一个都不认识（不好意思，因为每次training都遇不到）
NC team：感觉和我们一样，爱讲话。。。。不错不错
                沟通良好，感情增进不少～ ^ ^
这段时间我忙的很开心～～～～～


               

走 。完

因为一通电话，我们手忙脚乱。

虽然如此，我们还是及时到达。

静静的，吸尽最后一口阳气，走了。

来不及等待该出现的人。

或许是痛苦太久，放弃是最好的解脱。

然而这对来不及的人来说却是一种后悔。

“子欲养而亲不待”

～～～～～～～～～～～～～～～～～～～～～～～～～～～～～～～～～～～～

原来，原来还有这么一号人物。

原来是表哥，真帅！

。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。

这个叫表嫂的女人真不识大体！

一支香也拿不好，坏女人！

双膝跪下也不愿意，噢，这女人真坏！

。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。

灵堂上大吵大闹，我不喜欢这个舅舅！

谁说笑就代表不伤心？

外婆不喜欢所以哭不得。

外婆很安详。

～～～～～～～～～～～～～～～～～～～～～～～～～～～～～～～～～～～～～～～

进行白阳仪式。

哀歌取代师公。

就这样，人的一生，走完。